It's all about building a habit, right?

I tell myself I'm going to post here, and then I don't. I don't even think about it for days on end, and then a voice in the back of my mind says "remember how you were going to do that thing?" and I cringe and don't make any attempt to try again.

I could say "this ends today!" but to anyone still following me here, that's very obviously a joke. I can't even keep up with my initial idea of posting to thehaikuyear. And that was supposed to be my jumping off point for getting back into this.

I'm still trying to figure out exactly what I need to do to get back into this place. It all just feels odd, sort of like returning to my high school. Everything looks close to how it used to, but dissimilar at the same time, and I don't fit in here the way that I barely did before. Plus, basically all of the communities I used to follow are dead and my interests have changed so much since I first started this thing. Time marched onward, and I think I thought LJ was just going to stay the same.

Anyway, I'm going to try to spend this month posting here more, whether those posts are public, friends-only, or private, I guess that depends on my mood.

Maybe I can hit my golden birthday and have at least a starting point to show for it. Or maybe the posts this month will just be me fretting everyday about turning 30.

Only time will tell.